Can numerology tell me how I can lead a life that I know is genuine to my soul blueprint as I have a contradicting personality?

My name is Tanya Chamaria born on 8 th May 1998 at 7:00 AM in Hyderabad. My personality seems to be a contradiction to me: I am an introvert and an extrovert, rational and emotional, solid and idealistic. Due to this reason I struggle hard with making choices about my direction in life. I frequently ask myself the question as to whether my confusion is that of a larger process, or merely a symptom of disorientation. Would you please break my numerology chart down and tell me how I can lead a life that I know is genuine to my soul blueprint?