I'm scared of silent meditation; is there a guide who provides constant background sound?

My name is Amrita, my birthday is on 7 th May 2001. I would like to attempt meditating without voice, yet an utter silence would leave me feeling helpless and it would be followed by a rush of anxiety. I have a sensation that I am in need of a buffer between me and the silence. I would have to identify the guide or an application that will only give me a steady, safe background noise, such as white noise or rain, to assist in dealing with my anxiety throughout the session.