What is the hidden meaning behind my life number? Am I living the life i was truly meant to live?

My real name is Shiv Malhotra who was born on 9th February 1991 at 11:55 PM in Pune. Even since my college life, I feel like I am living the life of someone, living by other things that are expected in the society, not by what my heart tells me. I am steadily employed but not engaged or involved in my work. It has usually led me to question whether God has more in store of me. I would like to learn more about the deeper purpose why I am here and what are the special traits that I was born with. Will my numerology figure give me the true meaning behind my numerals and direct me to live the life I was supposed to?