Why bowl detaches emotions blank observer wall?

Instead of feeling more connected, the bowl sometimes makes me feel blank and detached, like an observer behind a glass wall. My name is Rohan, born December 12, 1990. All my emotions seem to get switched off, and I'm left with nothing. Time: 9:05 PM. Location. This emptiness is peaceful in a way, but it's also unsettling. I don't feel healed; I just feel nothing at all, which is its own kind of strange.