Why do I feel an intense resistance to being told how to meditate?

I have a deep, automatic aversion to being guided in meditation. It feels insulting, like my soul already knows how to do this in solitude. My inner voice pushes back against the guide's instructions immediately. It's thought that this resistance stems from a past life theme of spiritual discipline and isolation. Could I have been a hermit in a past life, making my soul resistant to this modern, assisted form of practice that feels like a crutch? My name is Suresh and my full birth details are 2nd February 1990, 8:00 AM. Location: Varanasi.