Why do I feel confused between stability and freedom? Will numerology clarify my soul path?

My name is Smriti Verma, I was born on 17 th September 1994 and this was at 10.20 AM in Jaipur. There is some kind of internal struggle that I often experience-- one part of me wants stability and structure, and the other one wants to be creative and free. It is due to this duality that I have been changing profession several times and even now, I am not satisfied. I always question whether I turn a blind eye to my calling and do not even know it. I am asking to have my numerology chart read and exactly what my soul purpose is, how can I be clear with what path is it that I am supposed to be on.