Why do I feel guilt when I am asked to forgive myself for past actions?

Namaste, Sanya. Guilt is a heavy chain, but you are the one holding the key. Born February 16, 1999, your chart shows a Saturn-Moon influence (Vish Yoga). This is the "Harsh Life Theme" of "Internalized Debt." You feel "Guilt" because your subconscious believes that "Punishment is a form of Payment." By not forgiving yourself, you feel you are "Paying" for your past. But this "Payment" is destroying your Sun (Self-worth). The "Internal Refusal" is your ego’s attempt to maintain "Moral Control" over the past. Detailed Solution: You must shift from "Forgiveness" to "Responsibility." Forgiveness feels like "getting off the hook," which you hate. Instead, tell yourself: "I take responsibility for the past, and I am choosing to use my energy to do 'Good' now, rather than wasting it on Guilt." This "Active Karma" approach aligns with your chart. Detailed Remedies: ● Seva (Service): Do one small act of kindness daily for an animal or a person in need. This "Balances" your internal karmic scales. ● Remedy: Donate Black Mustard oil on Saturdays to appease Saturn (the lord of guilt). ● Mantra: Chant the "Gayatri Mantra" to invite the "Light of Wisdom" into your dark guilt-patterns.