Why do I feel pulled in two directions and what my number says?

My given name is Sneha Iyer and I was born on 2nd April 1996 at 9:05 AM in Bengaluru. I have realized that I am attracted to people and the need to help and make a change, or to be in charge and establish a generation of my own. These two halves of me tend to tug me this way and that way and have me at cross purposes as to where my attention is most needed. My question is which of these energies is predominant as per my numerology and what do I do to balance one without being torn between them. Will you assist me in the gaining of the actual mission of my soul?