Why exercise reject soul trauma cellular resistance?

The idea of hard workouts does not only seem hard, but in a spiritual sense, it seems to be horribly wrong, as my soul rejects the recollection of a past trauma. I feel a physical weariness of the ancient in meditation. This is not mere indolence, but rather a cellular, visceral resistance, and is even older than my own life. It turns the very process of running into a serious psychological struggle. Name: Sunita DOB: 5th April 1985 Time: 5:15 AM Location: Varanasi