Why future self guilt betray current endured self?

As I identify with my future, healthier self, there is a sense of guilt, like I am betraying the person that I am. This new iteration has endured much; fighting against change seems like a denial of her efforts and her life. This surprising devotion to my current self forms a very strong emotional block. And how shall I go on without seeming to abandon part of me to agony? Name: Simran Kaur DOB: 18th November 1993 Time: 4:45 PM Location: Chandigarh