Why mindful eating anxious selfish hurry awkward?

Being such a serious eater makes me super-selfish and nervous. The stress of doing it properly and experiencing all the feelings overwhelms me, and I feel like hurrying through the meal in order to stop the awkward attention. The trick is supposed to help me eat more slowly and be more satisfied actually makes me feel more anxious, which only contributes to the disconnected, rushed eating habit that I am attempting to break. Name: Anjali Tiwari DOB: 1st December 1990 Time: 1:05 PM Location: Indore