I think that my friendship is not real anymore, as I have always been on the sideline. Am I over thinking

Mera naam Trisha Mishra hai aur mai 20 saal ki hu. Mere 2 boht close friends hain. Hum teeno kafi time se saath rahen par aaj kal mujhe esa laga hai jese mai unke beech third wheel karti hu. Vo apne inside jokes par haste hai aur mere bina plans bana lete hain. Mujhe samjh nahi aa raha hai ki mai overthink kar rahi hun ya mere dost ab mere dost nahi rahe. Please mujhe guide kijiye.
(Trisha Mishra, DOB: 15 Nov 2003, 8:05 AM, Patna)