Why is meditation making me more depressed and alone?

Namaste Shruti. You are not "doing it wrong"; you are simply using the wrong tool for this specific season of your soul. Born May 23, 1998, your chart likely shows a Saturn-Moon conjunction or a strong Mercury-Ketu influence. In deep depression, the mind is like a "Broken Record." Sitting in silence for 10 minutes is like locking yourself in a room with a bully (your negative voice). The silence "Amplifies" the noise because there is nothing else to listen to. Silent meditation is not recommended for deep depression. Detailed Solution: You need "Guided Active Meditation." The New Path: Use meditation with Continuous Sound or Voice. Do not sit alone with your thoughts. You need a "Guide" to hold your hand and "Drown out" the negative voice until you are strong enough to face it. Detailed Remedies: Remedy: Try "Walking Meditation" or "Chanting aloud." The physical sound of your own voice is the only thing that can "Break the Spell" of the negative inner talk. Action: Limit meditation to 3 minutes of "Gratitude Listing" aloud. Mantra: Chant "Om Dum Durgayei Namaha" for strength and protection.