Why do I crave his attention constantly but panic when he gets too close emotionally?

Name: Kiara Jain

Date of Birth: 17th June 2002

Place of Birth: Hyderabad

Time of Birth: 9:30 PM

I hate being ignored. So when he doesn't talk to me, I hate it. I tell it to him, I cry, I throw tantrums when he doesn't talk to me. But I feel suffocated and cold when he gets emotionally close to me. I don't know why this difference happens, what is this conflict in me. Like I want love but I can't handle it fully. So is there anything in my chat that shows a conflict of emotional needs or fear of losing control in a relationship?