Why do I feel I’m going through a spiritual awakening but it’s too intense?

Name: Meera Pillai

DOB: December 4, 1998

Time: 10:50 PM

Place: Kochi, Kerala

Mujhe lagta hai kuch andar badal raha hai — jaise spiritual awakening ho rahi ho, par kabhi kabhi yeh bahut heavy lagta hai. Kya aura cleansing crystal mujhe balance karne mein help karega as per my chart?